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Wednesday, September 29, 2010

30 days to 21

it's september 29 and i'm 21 in just a month. suddenly sometihing hits me. have I been a good DINDA for this past 20 years? have I done anything good?

i've spent my childhood full of happiness. i've sang a thousand times in everywhere i could've imagine. i made a lot of new friends, friends which i might never met again now. it's a blessed having such a childhood like that. it shaped me to be a time-well-managed person. a multitasking person, to be exact. and those are two good things that i will always hold forever.

and the education i've followed, well i can't thank my parents enough for pushing me real hard. it's harder when i'm in elementary. and though it decreases when i grow up, the lesson i've gained never leave.

after all of those blessed, why still i think that i'm not good enough for my age? i feel like i can do more. and i have to do more.

i still have 30 days untill i reach 21. i will make them count :)

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

age 20ish act like 17ish hahaha :))

the last time that i really love someone was .... mmm... long time ago? hahahhaa. okay,so i've decided to 'take-a-look' at boys (oh myy that sounds corny -__-") and i found one that attract me ahahhahaay. maluuuuu. it's not that i love him already. but remember his weirdo act sometimes makes me laugh. hahahaha. padahal orangnya ga pernah ngelucu juga. bahkan dia so faaaaaaaarrrrr awaaayy juga dari saya. so i've only seen him one or two times in college. kalo kata ega, lumayan buat 'deg deg seer' ajah hahaha. love youu gaa :)

anyway, this guy iiiiss out of reach of course, dan gue nggak ngeliat juga ada masa depannya buat gue sama dia. jadi mungkin memang hanya untuk 'dilihat' tapi 'dipegang jangan' hahahaha, just like one of dewi persik's movie :p

hahahaa, this post is full of laugh. even my dad noticed yesterday that i couldn't stop smiling huahahahhahahaaaa. maluuuuuuu.

udaah aah postnya, isinya ketawa mulu hihi :p

Monday, September 27, 2010

48KG!!!!

from everything that happened today, i guess the number 48 will haunt me for the rest of my week. astagaaa berat badan ternyata melonjak nakal hingga 48 kilo. desperado. udah 4x nimbang hari ini disertai jokes mama waktu sampai rumah.

gue (setelah nimbang di timbangan mama) : horeee mah beratku turuun. tadi pagi nimbang di timbangan kamar beratnya 48, sekarang di kamar mamah jadi 46!

mama : oooh timbangan di kamar mama tuh beda 2kg sama timbangan di luar

gue (sangat histeris dan senang) : weee berarti beratku 44 ya maaah hahahaha. senaaaangggg.

mama : bukan, timbangannya kurang 2kg dibanding di luar

gue : zzzzzzz '____'

astagaaaa, jadi sebenernya timbangan kamar gue bener 48. dan itu terjadi dalam sehari setelah malem minggu kemaren makan 2 porsi nasi sama lauk malem-malem. siauuuulll!
menyesaaal sekali sayaa.

so i've decided to put an extra effort in order to make my body smaller hahhaa. i put a sign on the wall wrote "SEMANGAT TURUNIN BERAT BADAN 40kg" hiyahahahahahhaa. then i wrote some easy exercises which i have to do everyday. i've started those exercises today. dan kerasa banget badan udah kakuuuu sangat.

when i was in junior high, OSIS selalu lari setiap minggu. push up, sit up juga selalu ada. ditambah merpati putih yang selalu ada setiap hari sabtu. it made my body healthier than now. i have to make it better.

if everyone else can do it, I CAN DO IT TOO :)

Sunday, September 26, 2010

broken plan

how many times have you planned something and end up screw it? mine is today. me and a group of mine called PELACUR (please don't think negatively about the name, the name stands for pelaku curhat hahaa) plan to have this beautiful sunday to bandung. we've planed this since early september. and today i can't make it because of this damn astma. i feel bad about it.

meanwhile, my choir has its audition today. so me and my friends did the inmterview and let them tested by our coach. thank God everything went smooth. except that jumlah peserta audisinya sedikit. another broken plan. but we still have our last chance on october 3rd audition. we'll just have to prepare it better.

i guess every plan has the possibility to fail. it is our job to minimize the failure. i usually not really that bad in minimizing something like that. cos i lower my expectation rather than rising it. i always think everything in a bad way, that something might screw whatever plan i made. at the end, i guess i'll have to keep believe that God will show me the best way. and i DO believe that every God plans, every wrong turn, every bad ending, is very special. because God will always gives what's the best for each of His people.

so thank God for every broken plan i made, cos it taught me a lot of things :)

another frightened thing on my mind

as a communication student, we learn about a number of communication theories that will help us to explain everything that happen in our daily life. on of the theory that appears to me now is about television and crime. the theory said (i forget the name of it) that someone who spend more time watching television, who happen to broadcast a lot of crime, will feel more anxious when she walks alone in the street. means that she will be more afraid that the world is as bad as the television said. well, this theory actually happens to me now in a different way.

i seldom watch tv, because i rarely found an interesting program in our tv (indonesian program). so i usually watch movies and serials. and i loove action movie, until it made me afraid about everything in my life. i didn't know when it started. all i know is right now, i begin to be more aware. i started to be just like my mom, cheking my entire house every night, make sure we've locked all the doors. sometimes when my dad came late, i even called him and asked when he will back. and this week, this paranoia gets to the next level, i even scared to sleep in my own room!!!
i don't know what happen to me. i am afraid of everything. i am afraid something bad will happen to my sister in Bandung, so i force her to accept my mom's cell, since hers cannot accept any phone (which is important when she's in trouble). and today, my dad, brother, and i watched war movie that reaaalllyyy scary. i hate it so much.

sooo i keep wondering, what happen to me? is it because of i rarely pray so that i feel so afraid everytime? hmm i guess that's one point i must do.

above everything, i also wonder why oh why the world need to be this way? in newspaper, radio, television, indonesia, and the rest of the world, crime is increasing. why? doesn't the world will be a better place when we start to respect each other and help each other and just live in peace? why some people have to be that egoist? only want to have their own happiness and satisfaction without thinking about what others feel?

does the phrase 'world peace' only just a phrase consists of 2 words without meaning?

Friday, September 24, 2010

personal taste - my personal taste of korean drama :)


okaay, everyone has seen it already. everyone has gone crazy of Lee Min Ho cause of it. dan gue baru sekarang huahahahahhaaa. at first i think this drama is not that good. basically, you can guess about the story and how the ending will be.

only after chapter 9 i realllyyy realllyyy REALLLYYY love this drama. awww what i like the most is somehow i see a little bit of myself in park gae in. not the part where she is soo damn creative, etc. but the part where she'll do almost everything for the guy he loves. at this drama, park gae in told jeon jin ho that eventhough he doesn't love her as a woman, she still wants to be with him and marry him just for the sake of his mother's. so basically, she's eager to do impossible thing for him. awww. and the best part is that he loves her that much too.

you know i often think where to find someone who love me thaat much. or am i someone who doesn't deserve that kind of love? cause i'm tired to always fight for someone and got nothing in return. not entirely 'nothing'. haaaahhh. i always talk about this kind of thing with my best one. but still i can't find the answer.

well i guess, meanwhile i'm waiting for the right love to come, i'll try to make alll my dreams come true and of course, watch personal taste :))

Thursday, September 23, 2010

what's the definition of bestfriend?

i've just read one of my colleague's blog and suddenly i feel an urge to write again and ask this important yet -sometimes- taken for granted question, what is bestfriend? what kind of caracteristic that make somebody someone's bestfriend?

-like i said, important yet ,sometimes, taken for granted-

hmmm how should i start this post? bestfriend. it's a dangerous word for me. gatau kenapa masalah sahabat selalu bisa bikin tensi naik berpuluh kali lipat dibanding masalah pacar. untill now, i have mad my very own definition of bestfriend; someone who can make you talk (means that he/she listens to your story) and at the same time make you hear (what i mean is that he/she also talks to you about their problem). jadi sahabat buat gw adalah sebuah hubungan timbal balik. what happens to me usually i talk and talk and talk about every detail of my life, while they-who-claimed-themselves-as-my-bestfriend hear and hear and hear. at first, it was fun. i get a lot of advices from people around me. until at some point, i realize that they don't trust me to share about their problem. trust. it's a 'hard word'.it's not easy to make someone trust you.

soo yeah, beside all of the usual definition (bestfriend is someone who will stay beside you in a good and bad time, bla bla bla..), i personally added reciprocity as one of the most important thing in this kind of relationship.

i can't thank enough to God for sending me these wonderful bestfriends (you know who you are :*). one day, i'll tell you their super-power that makes our relationship lasts.

:) ciao now

menguruskan badan :)

it's a little embarassing to write such a title like that. but that's all i plan for now.

it's been a while since i wrote my last post. only 3, nda? haha. i'm a little busy with my life lately. well, it's my fault basically. i always do the same thing, try to do a lot of things in the same time without thinking about its effect to my life. it happens again and again. jadi gue seperti apa ya itu nama hewannya lupa. yang selalu ngulangin kesalahannya haha. but i've got my lesson though.

okey, about menguruskan badan, actually i'm not that fat yet not that thin either. thin kurus kan ya?huahahaha. sok-sok berbahasa inggris tapi ngaco hehe. banyak lemak yang entah kenapa nyaman banget di badan yang entah kenapa ga tinggi-tinggi dari jaman smp. sedihnjo :""(

sooo i've decided to change the way i live my life a little bit. sorry, not a little. hari ini sudah belenji bersama mamah buat cari makanan bergizi tapi juga ga bikin gemuk. akirnya tadi beli nasi merah, kentang, roti gandum. huahhaaha kalo dimakan semua mungkin gendut juga kali gue. soo i'll change the way i eat. buat tes awal, besok makan roti gandum with low fat milk. beras merah, for starter, dicampur sama beras putih. for your info, gue baru tau juga kalo beras putih yang putiih banget itu ga bagus. karena dikasih pemutih. dasarnya beras warnanya butek. so be careful when choosing your rice.

what else? hmm i plan to do excercise too. emang dasar pemalas, olahraga bisa jadi cuman 2minggu sekali atau malah kalo niat aja tiba-tiba. i can't ride a bike. i can't do skipping. not yet siih. resolusi gue lah ini olahraga ringan harus bisa banget hehe.

just like my old pals said : first dream something big. then try to be that something. i dream one day i can live a healthy life with a healthy body. this's my way to make my dream comes true.

so, it your turn now to make yours come true too :)