another frightened thing on my mind

as a communication student, we learn about a number of communication theories that will help us to explain everything that happen in our daily life. on of the theory that appears to me now is about television and crime. the theory said (i forget the name of it) that someone who spend more time watching television, who happen to broadcast a lot of crime, will feel more anxious when she walks alone in the street. means that she will be more afraid that the world is as bad as the television said. well, this theory actually happens to me now in a different way.

i seldom watch tv, because i rarely found an interesting program in our tv (indonesian program). so i usually watch movies and serials. and i loove action movie, until it made me afraid about everything in my life. i didn't know when it started. all i know is right now, i begin to be more aware. i started to be just like my mom, cheking my entire house every night, make sure we've locked all the doors. sometimes when my dad came late, i even called him and asked when he will back. and this week, this paranoia gets to the next level, i even scared to sleep in my own room!!!
i don't know what happen to me. i am afraid of everything. i am afraid something bad will happen to my sister in Bandung, so i force her to accept my mom's cell, since hers cannot accept any phone (which is important when she's in trouble). and today, my dad, brother, and i watched war movie that reaaalllyyy scary. i hate it so much.

sooo i keep wondering, what happen to me? is it because of i rarely pray so that i feel so afraid everytime? hmm i guess that's one point i must do.

above everything, i also wonder why oh why the world need to be this way? in newspaper, radio, television, indonesia, and the rest of the world, crime is increasing. why? doesn't the world will be a better place when we start to respect each other and help each other and just live in peace? why some people have to be that egoist? only want to have their own happiness and satisfaction without thinking about what others feel?

does the phrase 'world peace' only just a phrase consists of 2 words without meaning?

personal taste - my personal taste of korean drama :)

okaay, everyone has seen it already. everyone has gone crazy of Lee Min Ho cause of it. dan gue baru sekarang huahahahahhaaa. at first i think this drama is not that good. basically, you can guess about the story and how the ending will be.

only after chapter 9 i realllyyy realllyyy REALLLYYY love this drama. awww what i like the most is somehow i see a little bit of myself in park gae in. not the part where she is soo damn creative, etc. but the part where she'll do almost everything for the guy he loves. at this drama, park gae in told jeon jin ho that eventhough he doesn't love her as a woman, she still wants to be with him and marry him just for the sake of his mother's. so basically, she's eager to do impossible thing for him. awww. and the best part is that he loves her that much too.

you know i often think where to find someone who love me thaat much. or am i someone who doesn't deserve that kind of love? cause i'm tired to always fight for someone and got nothing in return. not entirely 'nothing'. haaaahhh. i always talk about this kind of thing with my best one. but still i can't find the answer.

well i guess, meanwhile i'm waiting for the right love to come, i'll try to make alll my dreams come true and of course, watch personal taste :))